Heart Of The Matter

I'm very tired today. Made the deadline. Finished putting together a 152-page book for our Annual General Meeting. It may only be ministry reports, but it sure is a whole lot of pages! It's like publishing an entire book -- except that it's a combination of writers.

I'm very tired. Chasing people for deadlines. Keeping my cool when people keep changing their data just when I've finished their section. Staying patient with people who don't understand stages of work or follow systems. Worse yet, when they're my leaders... sigh...

I have to learn humble submission and rebuke myself for being prideful, thinking I know better than them, and not giving honour where honour is due. Lord, forgive me for my pride and self-centredness.

So what if I meet a deadline, but miss the heart of the matter - which is to love people and give grace as I have received grace, right? Lord, please teach me how to value what you value, and not lose focus on what is really important at the end of the day.

Something just strikes me now... perhaps when I experience and am able to release grace, I may not be so tired after all, but on the contrary, I might actually find True Rest...??