Career Change
Sorry for the long lapse of silence. If you actually follow this blog, man, apologies! But then again, my life was going through major upheaval. Actually, what's happened in the last three months would have provided tons of fodder for this blog. But you see, I was too busy actually living my life and trying to survive the upheaval, so I hope you understand why I had to abandon ship (or rather, abandon blog) here for a while. Sorry to all my fans out there (haha, if any, that is!).
Anyway, so now that my life has officially been "kicked up in the air" and the jigsaw picture shattered into a million pieces, I am feeling exactly like that -- "shattered" and my life feels like "a million pieces in the air"!
I have NO IDEA what my future holds. It's frightening for a Type A personality like me. I need a plan. A blueprint. A goal. Rather, goals. One short-term, and one long-term -- AT LEAST.
Maybe this season is to teach me to let go. Trust in God. Try living without A Plan. (Yikes!)
Well, for now, let's just say I'm getting used to working from home. Freelancing kinda grows on ya. I'm enjoying doing freelance writing, magazine copy editing and book editing. But being a E (Extraverted) type, I am a little afraid that I might sink into a depression if I don't have enough external interaction/stimulation from the rest of the world. (I think the I (Introverted) people probably have NO IDEA what I'm talking about!)
Anyway, for all the frightening elements that inevitably come with CHANGE, I guess I am thankful that God has provided me with at least enough freelance projects to:
a. Keep my active mind occupied (so that I won't go crazy while at home!)
b. Basic $$ to cover my expenses (so that I won't actually starve or find my phone line cut off!)
c. Still have enough time to rest from five years of intense frenzy
I'm still getting used to "being free" -- must confess, being "Nuah" (teochew for "lazing around") does NOT come naturally for me. But I am starting to enjoy actually NOT having to wake up before 9 am, and experiencing the new sensations that come with being anti-Type A -- for a CHANGE.
Well, sometimes I think I'm in the process of rediscovering myself.
My cousin and I joke about this strange phenomena of the "Nuah Type A", or alternatively, the "Tidak Apa Perfectionist". Haha!
Having been at least 31 years of Perfectionist Type A in the making, I have a feeling Nuah-ness and Tidak-Apa-ness aren't going to be so quick in developing... that is, uh, unless we follow the Five Year Plan To Nuahness...???
LOL.
Anyway, so now that my life has officially been "kicked up in the air" and the jigsaw picture shattered into a million pieces, I am feeling exactly like that -- "shattered" and my life feels like "a million pieces in the air"!
I have NO IDEA what my future holds. It's frightening for a Type A personality like me. I need a plan. A blueprint. A goal. Rather, goals. One short-term, and one long-term -- AT LEAST.
Maybe this season is to teach me to let go. Trust in God. Try living without A Plan. (Yikes!)
Well, for now, let's just say I'm getting used to working from home. Freelancing kinda grows on ya. I'm enjoying doing freelance writing, magazine copy editing and book editing. But being a E (Extraverted) type, I am a little afraid that I might sink into a depression if I don't have enough external interaction/stimulation from the rest of the world. (I think the I (Introverted) people probably have NO IDEA what I'm talking about!)
Anyway, for all the frightening elements that inevitably come with CHANGE, I guess I am thankful that God has provided me with at least enough freelance projects to:
a. Keep my active mind occupied (so that I won't go crazy while at home!)
b. Basic $$ to cover my expenses (so that I won't actually starve or find my phone line cut off!)
c. Still have enough time to rest from five years of intense frenzy
I'm still getting used to "being free" -- must confess, being "Nuah" (teochew for "lazing around") does NOT come naturally for me. But I am starting to enjoy actually NOT having to wake up before 9 am, and experiencing the new sensations that come with being anti-Type A -- for a CHANGE.
Well, sometimes I think I'm in the process of rediscovering myself.
My cousin and I joke about this strange phenomena of the "Nuah Type A", or alternatively, the "Tidak Apa Perfectionist". Haha!
Having been at least 31 years of Perfectionist Type A in the making, I have a feeling Nuah-ness and Tidak-Apa-ness aren't going to be so quick in developing... that is, uh, unless we follow the Five Year Plan To Nuahness...???
LOL.
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